It's funny how the truth can bend and take different forms from different perspectives. You would think there is only one solid True truth, but how can you argue with how one person remembers it versus how another person remembers it.
I remember the night after I saw Andrew in Vegas I was distraught because I didn't remember that night, and still don't, but during the day my cousin, who I hadn't from in a long time messaged me on facebook, telling me that he would call me soon. I couldn't have been happier. I thought I had Andrew, my best friend, back and my cousin! How could I be so lucky? In reality I probably destroyed my friendship with Andrew that day but we all make mistakes and I can't take any of it back now. As for my cousin, I told my mom that I don't know why he would respond to me after everyone else had tried. She said what I wrote him was probably the most heart felt and real. She went on to tell me how I worshipped him. He would be sitting there and I would just stare at him (I was so creepy, but don't worry it gets worse). I remember sitting in the car with my mom, I was really little, and I asked her if people could marry their cousins. She looked at me and said no sweetie, I then replied "well if I can't marry Nico then can I marry you?" apparently you can't marry your mom either lol
I know I'm lost in this world, I usually don't know where I'm going or even where I am right now. I've made so so many mistakes and I try really hard to learn from them even tho I often repeat them. I know sometimes I feel numb to all this and just want watch it all float by but I also know that family is sometimes the only thing that is real in this world and thats the thing I have to hold onto the most when I feel this way. I know Kevin will tell me I'm lost but I look to him for the right direction, I know my mom will be there to hold my hand while I'm lost and to dry my tears, I know my dad will be the comic relief and Tim will be the one tell me he is proud of me. My aunts will be there to push me through when I feel like I'm falling backwards. And hopefully my cousin will be the one thats right beside me as we talk our way out of the abyss.
