Inspiration?

This summer, in attempts to graduate after fall quarter, I decided to take a couple of classes. One is a screenwriting class with Richard Walter, who has basically taught almost all the big name screenwriters in Hollywood. He is an amazing professor, and I'm really lucky to be in the class. However, I suck. I cannot write this fucking script. I'm feeling very discouraged and embarrassed about my writing, which never happens. I'm generally pretty confident but with this story I keep feeling like I wont do it justice. The character is a combination of two girls, but two girls I've never met. One is a girl who killed herself and I never met her. The events that happen are based on a girl who got her boyfriend addicted to heroine and basically did some really fucked up shit. However, because I have never met either of these girls I cannot come up with the dialogue for her. I know how I want her to be but I just have no idea what these girls would say in situations like this. I guess I need to stop making my character out of these girls and start making her how I want and not care what people think. Its hard to just use information you've heard about a girl and be expected to make a character act and say things like that girl. I guess I need to come to terms with that.

On another note I love how writing is the only way I can work through my problems now.

As I procrastinate writing my script, I look at all the social media websites my friends use. I want so much to be with them sometimes. I want to be on their couch playing Call of Duty, passing out on their floor and waking up at 3 in the afternoon and do the same damn thing. But I have to remind myself why my friends can do this on a Thursday. They have started to make something for themselves. I have to remember that I'm still in school and I haven't made it as a writer. I haven't even come close. It's hard to pass up going out with all my friends in Hollywood, drinking having a good time with the people I love but if I want to continue to do this I have to get on the next level first. But knowing me I'm going to continue to do what I've done for the past 3 years and go out with my friends. I'm going to make amazing memories and sometimes forget what I did that night. And then do a half ass job at whatever I'm working on.